It seems impossible that four years have gone by since Harper was born, and at the same time, it feels like the days where it was just me and her were forever ago. Life has been busy for us, and I sometimes think that having babies back to back forces your oldest kids to grow up a bit quicker. She might still need help putting on her shoes or may have a meltdown at bedtime, and we find ourselves having to take a step back and remember that she is only four. We expect so much from her because she acts so grown up all the time. She is so sensitive & sweet, and patience feels more important at this age than ever before.
I question if we have missed out on some of those fleeting moments with each child because we are juggling three of them. At the same time, Harper loves nothing more than being a big sister. Growing up with siblings is such a blessing. She is so nurturing, completely in tune to everyone's emotions & always the first to offer to help. Our little mama, who will always be our baby. And when your babies turn into big kids, they become more than just your children, they become your friends.
I question if we have missed out on some of those fleeting moments with each child because we are juggling three of them. At the same time, Harper loves nothing more than being a big sister. Growing up with siblings is such a blessing. She is so nurturing, completely in tune to everyone's emotions & always the first to offer to help. Our little mama, who will always be our baby. And when your babies turn into big kids, they become more than just your children, they become your friends.
They talk about when they were a baby, like as if it is some distant memory of theirs. We watch home videos & Harper cracks up laughing at her little self, while I sit there sobbing not knowing if I should look at the tv screen or look at her now.
They slowly stop doing things they used to love as toddlers, like wearing tutus over their pajamas or doing the hot dog dance.
They slowly stop doing things they used to love as toddlers, like wearing tutus over their pajamas or doing the hot dog dance.
They say things like, "When I'm older, will I be able to drink wine? Because I'm already old enough to kill spiders, so..."
Every morning, Harper comes into our room, climbs in our bed & asks me if I slept well. She asks me if she can give me a back scratch & tells me all the things she wants to help me make for breakfast. I love listening to her talk, I love her stories & imagination. Every morning, when she comes into our room, she looks just a little bit older.
I beg her to stay little, she begs to grow up to be just like me.
That little face, sometimes when she stretches in just the right position, she looks exactly like her little newborn self & my heart skips a beat.
Every time I read a comment that says "I have been reading since you were pregnant with Harper" I can't help but smile, because this whole blog started as a way to document my journey into motherhood. And here we all are, more than four years later. While I'd love to say this is still just my place to write about life or journal about our family, it is much more (and also less) than that. There is so much going on in our lives & with our kids that I don't share. I want to be real, without revealing too much. I also love writing about things other than my family, and this blog has become not just my hobby, but my job. My time away from my kids & other responsibilities. But I love it, I really do, and I hope that I can continue to find ways to share, and entertain, and if nothing else, give you all something to look forward to reading as so many other blogs have done for me.
Thank you so much for reading.
Time to go sleep stalk my babies before another night turns into morning.
Thank you so much for reading.
Time to go sleep stalk my babies before another night turns into morning.
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